the dogwood trees are blooming.

look how precious.

little baby pink dogwood!

BUT! I can't find any wisteria in my neighborhood, you know what that means?!?! FOTO SAFARI!!

In other news.
I have finally decided on a name for my new pet rat (I got him about a week or so ago). Introducing:

Mr. Winston Smith

Ironic, no?

Read "1984" by George Orwell, you will understand why I chose this name.

this is the end.

chels.

post.

so I am so excited!
dogwood trees are blooming!
apple blossoms, bradford pears too!!
Oh how I love spring!!
After I get off work, I think I shall go on a walk and take pictures.


still working on a paper though... keeping me inside on such a beautiful day!
boo monday!

this is the end.
chels.

and if the sun comes up tomorrow...

why is it.
that I can only write.
when I am having.
a bad day?

why do people have bad days?
I mean I know it's all in my head.
so why do I allow it to take over.
why can't I fight back?

do you like freckles?
I don't have freckles.

once upon a time.
I thought that when people said:
"I LOVE YOU"
you had to say it back.
or explain you just weren't meant to be.
or "No, you can't love me"
or something.
I dunno.
but just today.
I heard five people say:
"I LOVE YOU"
and all the other person could say was.
"thanks."
what? that's it?


this is the end.
chelsey.

rain-day.

and if I look up into the sky

the raindrops hit my face.

there is a chill in the air.

everything is a shade of grey

but it is in these times I find myself.

I'd like to sit closer to you though.

this boy told me:

"Before you go, I just want to say...the definition of beauty is written in your eyes...to look into them is to gain full knowledge of perfection and the record of this is written out on my heart...love"

he's too sweet, lives too far away.

he hurt me once...
hm.
but it's so nice to hear those words on this rainy day.

this is the end.

chels

pour mon ami.

Spring is in the air!


So this photo I took last year, but I still love dogwoods...









It's going to be raining all weekend. I love the rain.
It's kind of like a fresh new start to me.





I enjoy spending time with people, it's just, I don't always have the TIME to spend with them.

I should change that I guess...

pour mon ami; ma vie:

I was born, January 28th, in Fort Benning, Georgia.

(which is here)

I didn't live there long though. But I won't tell all the places I've lived.

But I will say, I have lived in Fayetteville the longest, and it really is home.

Even if I grew up in the ghetto.

We've moved since then too. Germany. For four years. Then straight back to Fayetteville.

I hated school, and didn't do so well... So I home schooled through high school, then started at the community college last year. Hopefully I will transfer in the fall to: PHC.

There is a lot about my life, that I cannot even begin to describe. Feelings so euphoric and some that were so devastating that it hurts to even think about them. And everything in between.

I have had few truly great relationships of any kind. and it is my fault completely. I suppose I have trust issues.

For me, trust is everything.

Why did you write this one?

well. I dunno.

You're doing it again.

Shut up, I know, I know.

this is the end.

chels