I want my ears to bleed.

my headphones are turned up as loud as they will go.

I am trying to drown my own thoughts.

I don't want to think about the future.

I am still young right?

Why do I have to make all of these huge decisions that affect me for the rest of my life, RIGHT NOW?!

what if I just don't want to go to college...

I have an idea, and I think it will work,

it's college, but on my terms...

but everyone keeps prodding me.

I've never done schooling or anything normally, so why start now!?

We leave for Rome this week.

couldn't have come at a better time.

I will observe the old world, and gather my conclusions about future there.

because whatever they did back then works, it's still standing.

this is the end.

chels.