vacation is over.

and I'm back in Fayetteville...

working. 40 hours this week.
studying. all other open hours.
sleeping? no, that's not happening.

not to mention, I can't walk through my room, it's that messy.
actually, messy isn't the right word.

it looks like a TORNADO went through my room.

I have tons of crafty ideas...

I am ordering my uke tonight! pretty excited.

I do have pictures from the vacation, I will post those soon, I hope.


this is the end.
chels.


ps random picture from my iPhone... they actually take nice photos:



this was "In the Woods" at FTCC.

Massanutten.

So I am at Massanutten right now...
It's pretty cool :]

I got to see Andrea, and hang out with her, but I just came to the realization that we didn't take any pictures together! AHHH!!!

I do have a lot of pictures to upload though, from other things.

today we are going hiking, and it's just gorgeous here. I love the Shenandoah Valley. I think I will move here one day, or something, it's so beautiful!

this is the end.
chels.

some pictures?

I really wish that my family knew how to use my camera... haha.
It's blurry, but I love this picture. I actually look pretty happy.








JOHN STONESTREET!! I cannot tell you what a great impact this man is in my life! Seriously, everyone needs to go to Summit:

www.summit.org

It was so much fun, but I guess it's only fun if you like reading, thinking, and wrestling tough subjects. One day I think I will go back.




This is what I came home too! My next-door neighbor Karsten drew this on my driveway! haha, He and his family pretty much are family. I totally didn't expect this, and was so surprised! You can't see it to well, but he drew me as a stick figure with a purple side ponytail... hahaha!
(he is making fun of me, because I always have the peace sign up in pictures... so that is why he has his... haha)



ok, that is all the pictures for now... I need to upload some pictures that I took a week or so ago from downtown adventure that I went on (by myself).

this is the end.
chels.

this past weekend.

So, the NCHE Annual Conference was this past weekend,

I HAD A BLAST! I met tons of cool, new friends from all over the state.
John Stonestreet was there, and gave awesome lectures (I had already heard all of them before... haha from Summit) and!!!
He was the one to give my commencement speech! HOW COOL!

I didn't really take that many pictures this time, but I will probably upload those later on in the week (the lighting wasn't all that great).

Other News:
MacBook. I am getting one sometime soon, so I am pretty stoked about that.
Mandolin. I need to go to some pawn shops around here and see what they have, I am not interested in a super duper nice one, just a nice one that I can learn to play on.
ACT. I am NOT excited about this, and I still haven't really studied... ugh, bad feelings...
Real College. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!?!?
Massanutten. We leave next Sunday! Uber excited!
Omaha. I need to book a flight... trying to find cheap tickets... ha.

this is the end.
chels.

new news.

ok,
so I have a "twitter"
I am not exactly sure what it is, or how to use it... but I have one.
my username is:

wannabechelsey

I am feeling super artsy right now, and I think I am going to go home a sew something, or make a paper card, or oh I dunno, just something artsy...

and now I want to make a terrarium. I saw the idea on some random blog, it's so cute.

ok, well, I have to pack for the Winston-Salem trip, and maybe while I am there I will have some time to create.

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chels.

amazing magazine.

I wish that America had magazines like this one:

http://www.frankie.com.au/

baahhh.
If I had the money, I would subscribe.
sooo coooool!

I am so inspired....

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chels.

summertime.

Well, it's officially summer!! (as of May 13th, 2009)

My plans include:

Studying for the ACT. (why I didn't take that in high school, I don't know...)
NCHE Conference May 20-23
Family Vacation in Massanutten VA (plus a mini trip to visit Andrea! YES!)
Taking the ACT June 13th
Visiting Friends in Omaha ??? (dates TBD)
Sleeping (a lot of this will be going on)
Crafty Things (I plan on learning how to sew clothing, that should be interesting!)
Summit Reunion (dates TBD)
Family Vacation on Hilton Head Island (LOVE this place)
Other random events
Then, Summer comes to a close.

College for the fall is still up in the air, but it looks like I will be continuing at FTCC for a second year (maybe just the fall semester) and then transferring to Appalachian State University in the Spring '10 semester, or Fall '10. We shall see...

By the way, it's pretty cold out! I thought it was the END OF MAY, but it's like 60s!?!? I WANT HEAT NOW!
Psh, Global Warming...

I am pretty excited about this weekend, I will post pictures! It's always a lot of fun, and this year there is a dance class again, which is hilariously fun!

I'm looking for a mandolin, I want one soooo bad. I love their sound. So that is what I am saving money for (plus the other half of a macBook, my parents are paying half!)

this is the end.
chels.

35mm.

happy day!





I got my very first roll of film developed!!





I'm pretty happy.
NEXT ROLL PLEASE!!

this is the end.
chels.

achoo!

Bless you?

I have been noticing something lately...
Anytime that ANYONE sneezes (whether I know them or not), I say, "Bless You!"
I have sneezed four times today, and no one has said anything of the sorts to me... I wonder why that is; maybe I sneeze incorrectly? Maybe I am too loud, or too quiet. Maybe the sound is not the right sound when I say "achoo"?? These things pass through my mind... I am not self-efficacious about sneezing.


I throughly enjoyed the Dogwood Festival this past weekend, and I am wrapping up this week of school. Two more weeks left, then summer break!!


Tonight I am seeing the Andy Warhol Exhibit downtown!!

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chels.

no rain.

This is my theme song, it pretty much describes me to a tee.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmVn6b7DdpA

No Rain - Blind Melon

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin' the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
But it's not sane,
It's not sane

I just want some one to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape
escape......escape......escape......

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
ya don't like my point of view
ya think I'm insane
Its not sane......it's not sane




Yeah, I'm insane.
this is the end.
chels.

no, I'm not mad. no, I'm not sad.

I'm just tired.

I finally sent in my PHC application!

I am excited, only four more weeks of school. Then Summer!
I have plans, they are just not set in stone:

1. Summit Reunion
2. Kinkeads
3. Sleeping


this is the end.
chels.

skuls wear hats.

so I drew this in art class yesterday (4-6-09).
thought I would share. I like how it turned out, other than the hat.

In other news:

WISTERIA HAS BLOOMED!!

Found it in the front of the neighborhood, in the woods. I think I may cut a few roots and transplant them in my yard. More pictures (better pictures... haha) to come!

this is the end.

chels.

the dogwood trees are blooming.

look how precious.

little baby pink dogwood!

BUT! I can't find any wisteria in my neighborhood, you know what that means?!?! FOTO SAFARI!!

In other news.
I have finally decided on a name for my new pet rat (I got him about a week or so ago). Introducing:

Mr. Winston Smith

Ironic, no?

Read "1984" by George Orwell, you will understand why I chose this name.

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chels.

post.

so I am so excited!
dogwood trees are blooming!
apple blossoms, bradford pears too!!
Oh how I love spring!!
After I get off work, I think I shall go on a walk and take pictures.


still working on a paper though... keeping me inside on such a beautiful day!
boo monday!

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chels.

and if the sun comes up tomorrow...

why is it.
that I can only write.
when I am having.
a bad day?

why do people have bad days?
I mean I know it's all in my head.
so why do I allow it to take over.
why can't I fight back?

do you like freckles?
I don't have freckles.

once upon a time.
I thought that when people said:
"I LOVE YOU"
you had to say it back.
or explain you just weren't meant to be.
or "No, you can't love me"
or something.
I dunno.
but just today.
I heard five people say:
"I LOVE YOU"
and all the other person could say was.
"thanks."
what? that's it?


this is the end.
chelsey.

rain-day.

and if I look up into the sky

the raindrops hit my face.

there is a chill in the air.

everything is a shade of grey

but it is in these times I find myself.

I'd like to sit closer to you though.

this boy told me:

"Before you go, I just want to say...the definition of beauty is written in your eyes...to look into them is to gain full knowledge of perfection and the record of this is written out on my heart...love"

he's too sweet, lives too far away.

he hurt me once...
hm.
but it's so nice to hear those words on this rainy day.

this is the end.

chels

pour mon ami.

Spring is in the air!


So this photo I took last year, but I still love dogwoods...









It's going to be raining all weekend. I love the rain.
It's kind of like a fresh new start to me.





I enjoy spending time with people, it's just, I don't always have the TIME to spend with them.

I should change that I guess...

pour mon ami; ma vie:

I was born, January 28th, in Fort Benning, Georgia.

(which is here)

I didn't live there long though. But I won't tell all the places I've lived.

But I will say, I have lived in Fayetteville the longest, and it really is home.

Even if I grew up in the ghetto.

We've moved since then too. Germany. For four years. Then straight back to Fayetteville.

I hated school, and didn't do so well... So I home schooled through high school, then started at the community college last year. Hopefully I will transfer in the fall to: PHC.

There is a lot about my life, that I cannot even begin to describe. Feelings so euphoric and some that were so devastating that it hurts to even think about them. And everything in between.

I have had few truly great relationships of any kind. and it is my fault completely. I suppose I have trust issues.

For me, trust is everything.

Why did you write this one?

well. I dunno.

You're doing it again.

Shut up, I know, I know.

this is the end.

chels

My Achievements Mock Me!

And now I sit here at some desk.

A write and work,

meaningless things.

I need some excitement.

What do you think about?

What do you mean?

You know, what do you think about ?

On A Daily Basis?

Yes.

Well, different things, I suppose.

Such As?

What should I do in life?

How do I go about doing that.

Is there such thing as "true love"?

What is friendship?

What does it feel like to be old?

I wonder if people think about me. And what they think about me.

Mhmm. Interesting.

What's Interesting?

The fact that you are talking to yourself.

Oh, that, yes. Who should I talk to then?

You know,

even though,

I feel,

that I know,

what I should,

and what could,

happen in my life,

I'm scared to death,

I'll miss something.

I'll miss someone.

I've lost my touch, I cannot define what I mean to anymore. I cannot argue my points, and it is frustrating.

this is the end.

chelsey

thinking.

Why do I say one thing, but mean another?
How come I can't make up my mind?
Why can't it be the right time for things?
Do I ever make sense?
How come most boys can't type as well as me?
Does it annoy anyone else when people chew?
Why do I like you, even though I know I shouldn't?
Why shouldn't I?
What would it be like if I couldn't smell?
What is aspartame?
What should I do in life?
Will I ever fulfill my dreams?


So I haven't updated this in quite some time.
School is OK, I like my psychology class. My English class is easy. Art class is the hardest because of my instructor. And I thought art was easy for me... I have three jobs now. ha. oh, and I can legally win teh lottery as of January 28th.

I wish I could say to you, all that was on my mind,
but unfortunately, that would ruin it between me and you.
I don't want that to happen.

Random.
I know.
Makes Sense?
Nope.


the end.
for now.
Chels

would you say so? if you thought of me?

School started back up. Classes will be interesting.
Break was good.

Lately, confusion is a friend of mine. It's like I cannot make sense of anything.

I need to shoot some photography. Something. I want to just go downtown with a bunch of people and just take pictures and have fun. Parental Units would most likely be against this though. In 12 days something is happening, but it just doesn't seem like such a big deal anymore. I thought that it was, but I just can't see how anything would change. I mean it's not like it's a magic number or something. And I will most likely feel like I am still being treated like a child. What does age really have to do with anything? As I get older, the only thing that I have noticed is that the fewer friends I truly have. I mean sure, my online social networking services may make it look like I have friends, but I no longer have the face to face quality time with friends. That's depressing. And I suppose it is mainly my fault, always falling into trouble and not being "allowed" to spend time with friends. Or if the friend is a male, my father always suspects something. I don't think he should, even if he knows that I may like someone, I guess he just doesn't trust me enough (which doesn't make sense, what have I ever done to make him think that? Nothing.). Maybe I am just having one of those days.

Well those are my thoughts, in no particular order... they really don't even make sense, but it's what's on my mind, minus a few things.

This is the end.
Chels